
There is a painting on the wall in my bedroom. It8217;s a bright orange sun glowing against a deep ocean blue sky. There are grains of rice put on four swastika symbols, painted in auspicious haldi-kunkoo colour. There is a face, painted on the brassy sun. There is something in it which makes me happy.
It makes my day. My mom painted it when she was suffering from cancer. She loved to play with colours and create magic on canvass as well as clay. She would make tulips, poppies from crepe paper. My room is filled with all these mementos.
Even in that dreadful state of health, she never stopped living for a moment. Her life was never devoid of colours. I used to watch her as she would dip the paintbrush in blobs of colours and then my Pablo Picasso8217;, as I used to call her, would put strokes of colours with a connoisseur8217;s eye. Her eyes would twinkle when she would see the colours speak for themselves.
Today as each time I see it, the warm colours instill in me some kind of faith in the abstractness, uncertainty of life. The vortex of the glow pulls me in it. There is a lot of energy and intensity in it. In life, there is a lot of tumult on the surface but inside there is a lot of depth. So much so that my thinking has been moulded for the better. I8217;ve begun to find meaning and joy in everything. I relate to this painting as I would relate to her.
There is a rock in the volatile sea just as there is something concrete inside yourself to which you can always hold on to. I know for sure that the sun will never go down on me. My room is flooded with its glow. It will watch me wherever I go. Sun, the centre of universe, life and energy giver, has given me my life, tying up the loose ends of the thread of life.