Sushmita Sen calls herself a ‘terrible’ actress when she started, says Bollywood only cared about heroes then: ‘Kya hi kar rahe the hum’

However, Sushmita Sen never got the role she craved as an actor. “I have seen the 90s cinema and now of course OTT, it’s a huge change. 90s cinema is all about, ‘Who is the hero? Heroine ke kitne gaane hai? Kitne conflicting scenes hai? Kaunsa designer ke kapde pehen rahi hai?’ (What are the number of songs, who is she wearing) This was the look and feel of actor back then”, said the actress.

 

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After appearing in several films up until 2015, Sushmita took a long break. In 2020, she made a powerful comeback with her OTT debut show Aarya, which gained her critical acclaim.

She said, “I am a big fan of OTT because it has given me my second innings as an actor. It has given me the kind of work that I was so hungry for many years. The ability to be part of my audience life for 45 minutes for about ten episodes. As an actor that’s a huge blessing.”

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In the same conversation, Sushmita Sen also talked about having bad days and feeling vulnerable. “We live in a world where we are constantly told to compare ourselves with other people. It’s like you are losing the ability to be authentic. I personally think when I have not so great day, and I do have them often, God helps. I meditate, I breathe and I come back to the present moment. And then I realise I am better off than most of the people in the world. I have just got tougher with time. Earlier things used to shake me a lot more. Your peace of mind is non-negotiable.”

The actress confessed that she is vulnerable all the time but hides it from her family. “I am vulnerable all the time, but I don’t like to show it. I don’t even share it with my family as it is not very helpful. I like to keep that vulnerability between me and God.”

Sushmita Sen said she loves to live her life and said her statement at Kapil Sharma show is the reality of her life. “Did you guys see the show of Kapil Sharma? When he asked me, ‘Ap picturo mein kam dikhti hai’, I said, ‘Mai zindagi zyada jeeti hu’. Because it is a fact.”