Kubbra Sait says she felt ‘hollow, very weak’ when she decided to get an abortion: ‘What if I died? No one knows and no one cares’

Kubbra Sait has opened up about her personal experiences many times in the past, and in a recent interview, the Sacred Games actor spoke about her experience of getting a medical abortion and how it impacted her mentally. Kubbra shared that at that time, she did not see it as an act of courage but could only decipher that she was “too weak to take it forward.” Kubbra shared that she went for the procedure all by herself and later wondered that this could have changed the trajectory of her life.

In a chat with Bollywood Bubble, Kubbra said, “When I went through the abortion, I don’t think I was being strong at all. I was just too weak to take it forward. I didn’t have the courage or the strength to say that if I don’t do this, then I will live with it. I felt very weak at that time. I felt hollow. I felt like I was not worth it at all. But what came out of it much later was strength. That you made a decision for yourself and stood by your own thoughts. You broke stereotypical patterns, you broke societal norms and no one knew about it. I went by myself and got myself through the abortion. I didn’t tell anyone.”

Kubbra said that she met a female friend of hers a few weeks after this incident and during the conversation, when her friend was complaining that Kubbra wasn’t paying her enough attention, the actor told her what she had been through, and this triggered an emotional response. “I just told her. ‘Who went through an abortion? You?’ And that’s when it hit her and that’s when it hit me and that’s when I started weeping because I was like, ‘I have not told this to anyone’. No one knows that this is what I have gone through,” she said.

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Kubbra said that at the time she did not realise that this could have had life altering repercussions and said, “What if I died? And you are taking this decision all by yourself. No one knows and no one cares. And this is not a small decision of your life. You don’t know how it’s going to impact the rest of your life.”

Kubbra has shared her life experiences in her book Open Book : Not Quite a Memoir.