Anupama Parameswaran recalls relationship horror that led to eye surgery: ‘Cried every night’

The problems started with panic attacks and anxiety attacks. She said they would come without warning, leaving her physically unable to function. “Our legs would suddenly start to shiver, our hands would start shaking, and we couldn’t even control it,” she said. Alongside the panic attacks came constant blackouts, episodes where she would lose consciousness or awareness without any prior medical history of such incidents.

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The anxiety also destroyed her ability to eat. She said that every time she consumed food, a conversation with her partner would trigger her anxiety so severely that she would throw up. “Whatever I ate, some conversation would happen, it would trigger my anxiety, and I would throw up,” she said. The result was severe weight loss that was visible to people around her but that she could not explain publicly at the time.

What affected her work most directly was her right eye. She said it began twitching uncontrollably during shoots, to the point where filming had to be paused. “My right eye would start glitching. You have to stop shooting because my eyes would start glitching. You can’t even stop it.”

The most serious physical consequence came when her lacrimal gland, the gland responsible for producing tears, swelled up and dropped from its normal position. She said the damage was caused by crying for hours every night over an extended period. “I was crying every single night for hours and hours, and I would have to get up and go to the shoot,” she said, adding, “All of a sudden, my lacrimal gland came down till here. It was swollen, and I had to get surgery done.”

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She pointed to her promotional appearances for the film Paradha as visible evidence of the damage. “If you see the promotions of Paradha, you can see that one side of my eye was very swollen. The lacrimal gland itself had fallen down completely, and then they had to stitch it back,” she said.

Even beyond these specific issues, Anupama Parameswaran said there were other physical problems she did not detail publicly. “There are wounds in my body, not by physical abuse, not directly by someone punching, but wounds and issues in my body that can never be healed. Physical and mental ones, for whatever I went through.”

She was clear that none of these health problems existed before the relationship. The panic attacks, the blackouts, the weight loss, the eye issues, the gut problems, all of them began during the two years she has described as the most difficult period of her life. “Nothing of this sort had happened before. None of this,” she said.

Anupama Parameswaran has not named the person she was in a relationship with. Reports have linked the unnamed ex-boyfriend to actor Dhruv Vikram, with whom she co-starred in Mari Selvaraj’s Bison Kaalamaadan (2025). Neither Anupama nor Dhruv has publicly confirmed or denied the relationship.

DISCLAIMER: This story shares personal experiences regarding emotional distress and relationship struggles for informational purposes and does not constitute professional psychological or medical advice. If you or someone you know is experiencing emotional distress or mental health challenges, supportive resources and professional helplines are available to help.

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