'I want to die after seeing my son'

Four years ago, it was the night of June 17 when Sofi, a resident of Daribal Khanyar in Srinagar, was picked by the Border Security Forces. And since then, he is missing in their custody. "They dragged him out of his bed and caught him by his hair," says his ailing mother, Fatima Begum. A businessman, Sofi used to trade in shawls most of the year outside his home state. "He was the only bread winner for our family. All his life, he lived to fulfill my wishes but when I need him the most he is nowhere," sobs Begum.

After Sofi's arrest, the family first destination was the local police station -- to lodge an FIR. "We approached the police with high hopes. And they also assured us that they will look for him and trace him. The then Superintendent of Police (south) also gave us assurances. But their assurances are not fulfilled till date," adds Begum.

And this marked the beginning of a search -- a search that never ended. The aggrieved family visited all the jails of Kashmir and went even to Jammu and Kathua. The disappearance of Sofi has left deep scars on the mind of her sister Hamida Begum too. "I see a psychiatrist regularly," she says.

"Since my brother was arrested, I have developed a fear. All my family members think that I am not in a perfect mental state. But I want to search for my brother," says Hamida.

The ailing Fatima has developed heart problems but she wants to die after the return of his son. "I am a heart patient but I don't want to die now. I want to see my son." she says with a glimmer in her eyes.