Umar Khalid, my son

Because to rebel is to affirm and renew one’s humanity.

Written by Apoorvanand | Updated: February 23, 2016 3:46 pm
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“Umar is my son,” I want to say. I have never met him. I do not know him. And yet, I want to claim him as my son. I do not have a son.

All I have is a daughter. A daughter fast approaching the age when young minds come into their own. Umar Khalid is past that age. He is already an independent, autonomous mind. And a heart bleeding for the oppressed of the earth, burning with rage for injustices against them, crying for justice for them.

Umar is the son every parent should desire and be proud of. Because he is one who can disagree, who can have the courage to rebel against his parents, who can break free from the cage of identity his family or community or religion has built for him — one who can prove his humanity by transcending the boundaries others fear to cross.

For if not Umar, what should youth be? How unfortunate would be a nation which has only obedient, conformist minds as its youth — youth who fight only for placements with fat pay packets; who are ready to turn into cogs and wheels of the machinery, which turns profit for a few and crushes the rest of humanity.

It is this lot, which has exchanged its soul for comfort, which is clicking away its nationalism on Facebook and Twitter. It is this horde, which is angry with Umar that he refused to join them.

Do not get me wrong. I do not want him for his politics or his ideology. He would differ with me violently, sneer at my revisionist views and laugh at my liberal hope from democracy. He, I am told, is an ultra-Maoist. I am a renegade communist. A former card-holder of a parliamentary party, which, in his eyes, is communist only in its name. I would accept him for his eternal rebellion. To rebel is to affirm one’s humanity. But a rebel is also one who renews humanity, who saves it from rusting.

“What is a rebel? A man who says no, but whose refusal does not imply a renunciation. He is also a man who says yes, from the moment he makes his first gesture of rebellion,” said Albert Camus. A rebel is one who is angry but not resentful; one who does not suffer from a feeling of personal deprivation. Resentment breeds envy — envy for something he thinks others possess and he lacks. Envy and resentment are not the emotions of a rebel; pain and suffering are. A rebel has the ability to identify with “others”, he is moved by their suffering and suffers for them. He swims across the rivers of tears and magnifies his cross. But he is not bitter because he is not selfish, he is not motivated by a feeling of personal deprivation.

Umar is Umar by name but he is not a Muslim. His father and family are practising Muslims. His father was once a member of the Students Islamic Movement of India (SIMI). But Umar chose not to take the path of his father. A politics that thinks only for Muslims is not for him. Breaking away from his family, he turned an atheist and an ultra-Maoist. He even resigned from his organisation for its insensitivity towards the questions of gender and Dalits rights.

He comes across as a person constantly moving leftwards.

The left is, then, an elusive idea and an unachievable end. Umar is in pursuit of this idea. I would not stop him, for this search may produce something which is new, something which we have not been able to create. This quest is valuable for us as it is not constrained by historical
expediency.

The “yes” of a rebel is informed by love, love for those he does not know personally, love for the wronged, the persecuted, ones who are on the wrong side of history. Camus calls it a strange love. It is not calculative. It is an unsuspecting love. A rebel who is full of such love does not care for his future. Philosophers say that only human beings can dream of a future. But a rebel does not plan and live for his future. He
gives everything for the present, for the living men. Camus concludes his thesis on rebellion by saying that we can show our “real generosity” towards the future by giving everything to the present.

Umar could have migrated to a safe future. He could have justified it by arguing that only by doing so would he be able to serve his politics better. But he chose vulnerability.

Umar sees himself as a person without borders. He does not want to remain imprisoned by nationalities. He reminds me of Rachel Corrie, a young woman from the US who, oceans away from her home in Columbia, stood before an Israeli tank to save a Palestinian house from being bulldozed. She was acting against her nation’s interest. She paid for it with her life. The Israeli tank did not spare a citizen of its ally nation. We need more Corries and Umars to sublimate our otherwise mundane, national existence even if we fear them.

Umar is back among his friends in JNU. You can hear him, loud and clear. He is not a coward; he is courageous enough to face this enraged nation. Question is, can we see him, eye to eye? We who have seen him vilified and lynched in cyberspace for the last 10 days?

It cannot be that we sing “Bidrohi (The Rebel)” by Kazi Nazrul Islam and shy away from Umar. Umar, Kanhaiya and their friends who must pay with their blood for Indian “patriotism” to survive. If we are true to our calling, we must declare them our own.

Woe to a country that does not stand by its Umars and Kanhaiyas, one which cannot bear being challenged by them, one which punishes them for raising their questions. Let us not sacrifice our Umars.

Let us not distance ourselves from them. Let us not murder our children.

The writer teaches Hindi at Delhi University

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First Published on: February 23, 2016 12:00 am
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    Bob
    Feb 23, 2016 at 6:13 pm
    What an article ? If your son wants to revolt then there are many bane in the country that he can chose from . Remember the series of corruptions we had where country was looted hundreads of Billions of Dollors ? Remember the Christian teacher in Kerala whose hands were chopped off because a question in the question paper was allegedly blasphememous , and what about those million women who can't afford the dignity of a toilet after 60 years of rule from the so called secular governments. Enough of this pretense. Umar made his choose and You are making a choose. I want my son to be someone like Dr. Abdul Kalam , he too was a revolutionary but he made a difference to the young mind.
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      Chandresh kumar
      Feb 23, 2016 at 9:28 am
      R u serious ...it looks I m reading a hero story for a person who wants Bharat barbadi and tukde and hails terrorists as their ideal...shame on these type of article...
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        Sirius
        Feb 23, 2016 at 7:16 am
        A poor eulogy to a confidence trickster ! All the more reason for the majority-general students to stay off politics and debates, and focus entirely on academic, cultural, sports excellence. Do original research , author papers with faculty, complete programmes with distinction, take extra credit courses, do MooC's to increase skill level and employability, work with accredited NGO's to build up your resume, bring laurels to your insutions and faculty , go abroad for PG and doctoral studies. Remember, carrying Apoorvanand's children with you is not your burden to bear, as they will drag you down . You are like the 'Jews' of millennial era, aim for the sky, not the Communist's cesspool ....
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          Hakim
          Feb 23, 2016 at 1:44 am
          Apoorvanand go marry your wife and daughter to umar
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            Hakim
            Feb 23, 2016 at 1:42 am
            The author is a pothead
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              Haradhan Mandal
              Feb 23, 2016 at 10:31 am
              Well written! These are the times when 'rebel' is a dirty word. These are time when you can not be a rebel and patriotic at the same time. These are the times when people resent and 'revolt' - if they are NOT allowed to use their car on certain ODD dates, these are time when sons, daughter, sons-in-law of a typical Govt or Railways Middle cl BABU (of Pandit Nehru or Indira hi's time ) - buy house in USA or in Gurgaon/Bangalore with 1 Crore Plus. You are not the PATRIOT - if your talk threaten and scares us and all that 'we have achieved'and all we dream to achieve and MAKE IN India or ABROAD for 'US'.
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                Mr indian
                Feb 23, 2016 at 4:04 pm
                Yet another appears from the woodwork. Book all of them for aiding and abetting sedition. These are serious crimes and you cant' simply sweet talk your way out of them. Must face the consequences. You and your son can enjoy life behind bars where it belongs.
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                  Indian
                  Feb 24, 2016 at 9:39 pm
                  Please change this domain name to as it suits more relatively : staniexpress/
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                    Jim
                    Feb 23, 2016 at 3:03 pm
                    he might well be your son
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                      Sivaramakrishnan
                      Feb 23, 2016 at 11:31 am
                      May I suggest? why not ask your daughter whether she will be willing to marry Umar??? If she is willing then you can have him as your son-in-law...
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                        Kanchhi
                        Feb 23, 2016 at 3:17 am
                        If the intellectuals become corrupt in any country and it is difficult for ordinary citizen to see the right and the wrong . The corrupt intellectuals are the obstacle for development. The Khalid - so called the son of the writer has hurt the feeling of ordinary citizen of our nation if you and your sons Khalid are innocent then please you both should go to court and proved your innocence - Khalid and others in JNU may be your issue why are you confusing other here. Gharwapsi, award wapsi, freedom of speech are not the issue in India - the issues are developments, advanced education system, storage of water, energy, Jobs for young, poverty, agriculture, untouchability, infrastructure many more..
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                          Krishna
                          Feb 23, 2016 at 4:11 am
                          Sir, a great artical by you. I am looking forward to read an artical from you to claim Kasab is your another son and Hafeez, Lakhavi, Masood are brothers.
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                            MyTake
                            Feb 23, 2016 at 7:50 pm
                            Bollywood has taken over the "intellectuals"!
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                              MyTake
                              Feb 23, 2016 at 7:52 pm
                              Is their really something seriously wrong Indian intellectuals?
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                                MyTake
                                Feb 23, 2016 at 7:49 pm
                                Stop writing poetry for terror sympathisers and do something worthwhile in life! People like you have put India in a ditch from where it neither can move or can stand!
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                                  Ekalavya
                                  Feb 24, 2016 at 10:53 am
                                  Why don't you ask you and your friends to stop killing our soldier/police/innocent citizen sons?
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                                    Naseem
                                    Feb 27, 2016 at 10:14 am
                                    I personally feel,speaking against atrocities is not crime. injustice done with all kashmiris is crime. What kind of democracy is this you can't utter a word against injustice in Modi Raj ? I am proud of this son of nation.
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                                      Sam
                                      Feb 23, 2016 at 1:18 pm
                                      You are spreading communal hatred
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                                        Saradha Sankar
                                        Feb 24, 2016 at 3:39 am
                                        I will be terrified to have a son likehim . ungrateful to the hand that feeds him.confused between noisy sloganeering and debating and discussing; lost like a child in the woods. ,coward hiding himself from law ,taking recourse to religious ideny when everything is failed , believes in violent methods to bring about so called change, intoletent,umcanny lier. I shudder at the though t of having him as a son.
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                                          Satvant
                                          Feb 24, 2016 at 3:35 am
                                          University mein aise ch ootiye log bhi teacher hai. Ya to selection process galat hai aur ya jaise jagah ye padhey wo. Inki rajnitik soch to hai hi bhadvagiri ki.....iski beti ki izzat abru ab rapist mulley hi tay karenegy
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                                            Tony
                                            Feb 23, 2016 at 11:30 am
                                            Shame on you
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