It was April 2007 and I was at a stage in my life when I could choose and afford to do almost anything I wanted. I had just been trekking in India,Nepal,Bhutan and Tibet with friends. I was turning 44. I owned a house in Battersea in south London,had a good social life and a job as investment correspondent for the Financial Times that I loved. But as I trekked through some of the most remote and beautiful parts of the Himalayas,I was dogged by the refrain from a Peggy Lee song: Is that all there is?
I was slow in coming to the realisation I wanted children. Most of my friends had done it years before,in their early thirties,at an age when I thought it peculiarly irrational to exchange personal freedom for the 24-hour responsibility of looking after a small child. But as I trekked I realised I wanted a family and time was running out. A visit to a childrens home in Nepal crystallised my decision,and in May I returned to London determined to adopt.
I knew adopting a child would not be quick or easy. Whether I adopted from Britain or overseas,I would have to submit to years of surveillance by my local authority,a process which Tim Loughton,minister for children and families,has described as like the Spanish Inquisition: painfully slow,repetitive and ineffective.
I contacted Wandsworth Council,the local government authority for Battersea,in June 2007 and the councils then head of adoption visited me at home. We made a half-hearted attempt to talk about domestic adoption but I already knew that any child I might be allowed to adopt in the UK would probably be well out of toddlerhood with a history of problems needing more skilled care than I was confident I could provide while holding down a job.
The conversation turned to adopting from overseas and the few countries that would still allow a 44-year-old single woman of my ethnicity to adopt a child under two. That really left only Russia .
Though China and Russia once sent more children abroad than any other country,China has for the past five years been restricting international adoptions,rejecting applications from the old,single and fat. Adoptions from Russia have also fallen: in 2004 about 9,500 close to 1 per cent (0.8 per cent) of all Russian children born that year were adopted by foreigners,according to Dr Peter Selman,a visiting fellow at Newcastle University and a specialist in international adoption. By 2010 just 3,387 Russian children were adopted by overseas parents,a decline due not just to economic pressures but also to increasing regulatory demands on would-be adopters.
I attended day courses run by the Intercountry Adoption Centre,and was visited on Saturday mornings by a social worker appointed for my home study,during which we discussed how I would cope with a small child. She watched over me while I played with my five-year-old goddaughter and then her one-year-old sister. She visited my family and spoke to my friends and filled out forms on how safely I stowed my knives and where I put the bleach. Her job seemed to be to ensure I had the means and moral fibre to take on a child without dumping it on the state when it got rough.
By February 2009,I was deemed ready to go to panel,that is,to appear before a panel of social workers,adoption experts,medical professionals and councillors to ask them to approve me as an adopter. I was quizzed on why I wanted to adopt,why Russia,how much I drank and whether I had ever spent a whole day and night in sole charge of a child. Ten minutes later I was told informally that I had been approved.
I then approached Taf,an Israeli adoption agency with a long history of successful adoptions from across Russia that I had come across in my researches,to help me find a child. Though Federation authorities categorised me as an independent adopter,I was allowed agency help and Taf had been highly recommended by previous adopters. It also quoted a charge for its services of Euro 20,000,rather less than other agencies ($30,000 or more seemed pretty standard).
For a year I heard nothing. Then,suddenly,in January 2010,while I was skiing with friends in Val dIsère,I received a call on my mobile from Taf’s representative in London . She told me a suitable child had been found a fair-haired and blue-eyed girl called Ekaterina. She had been born in March 2009,two months premature,in a hospital in Siberia .
With its myriad links to the region,Taf could also confirm that the girl fulfilled two vital conditions: she had no family who wanted to take her,and her mother had written a poignantly short but legally binding letter saying she was unable to care for the child and was giving up her parental rights. Simultaneously frightened,elated and shocked,I told my parents and those friends who knew about my decision to adopt,while I tried to assimilate the little information Taf had given me.
Back in London,I scrambled to pull together the paperwork to register with the Russian court.
In April 2010 I travelled to Siberia for the first time,my destination a baby home about four hours east of Moscow and directly north of Mongolia .
Taf had told me that I would be travelling with a couple who had also been matched with a baby in the same home and that we would be met at the airport by a lawyer they had found and a minibus. It was minus 10 degrees outside and the snow was more than 4 ft high as we were driven at breakneck speed through a landscape smudged by sleet and punctuated by Stalinist monuments. Smoke belched from mineshafts,the spring thaw beginning to reveal the carcasses of animals and machinery that had sunk into the black Siberian mud during a brutal winter.
At the baby home,a corrugated iron box painted an incongruously cheerful yellow with a small concrete playground surrounded by tower blocks,we were met by the director,who told us that none of the children had been outside since October. During the long winter,she continued,the children are given vitamin boosters and sunbed sessions to prevent rickets.
Inside the home,a mosaic brightened the staircase,pictures of adopted children lined the freshly painted turquoise walls and the place rang with the sound of dance and music classes.
In the directors office,presided over by a religious icon and pictures of Vladimir Putin and Dmitry Medvedev but with little in the way of ceremony,I was introduced to Ekaterina. A small 13-month-old girl,wearing a yellow chicken suit,she had no hair and a distressing way of falling forwards on to her head to manoeuvre herself the legacy of spending too much time in her cot,explained the Ukrainian paediatrician I had,at Tafs suggestion,brought for an independent opinion.
The director of the baby home had records of every illness Ekaterina had had since birth,the date when her first tooth appeared,but nothing of her family. She could tell me that Katyas mother was 23,dark-haired,grey-eyed and unwell,but that was all. In Russia,unlike in the UK,an adopted child has no right to learn about its birth parents.
Katya and I stared at each other. She was recognisable from a picture I had seen but I was looking for signs of foetal alcohol syndrome,a condition that irreparably damages childrens brains and is prevalent in the Federations orphanages. Then Katya smiled and my heart stopped.
For an hour or so we played in a vast playroom with bouncing balls,giant bears and climbing frames that was so pristine it was hard to imagine it had been used by many children. To my relief,the paediatrician declared Ekaterina Norrrmalll,absolllutely healthy. I tell you she is absolllutteelllly purrfect. We returned to the hotel,celebrating with vodka,soup,pickled mushrooms and preserved root vegetables until the early hours. I spent the next three days visiting the home to play with Katya,after which the director called me into her office to say I could be back in six weeks to collect the baby after a final court hearing.
It took another four months before I was able to return to Siberia with a new dossier of documents. By mid-August,summer had transformed the region into a rolling green and gold landscape of wheat and potatoes. Sunflowers and dill weed spilled over blue and green picket fences.
My lawyer,acting as interpreter,relayed the judges questions. Did I understand that I was taking on a child who might have difficulties? How,she asked,would I cope physically and financially on my own? Since you are not young,what will you deny her when you are tired? she asked. I told her I was probably fitter now than I had been in my twenties and that I was certainly more patient.
I was told to sit outside while the judge deliberated. Three minutes later I was told my petition had been approved and I could collect my new daughter in 10 days.
Ten days later,back in Siberia ,I took possession of Katya. Two days later we flew to Moscow,where for the next 10 days we fought with the UK Border Agency to extract a visa for Katya so that we could fly home to London . We finally did so on September 2,2010.
Since then Katya and I have lived together in Battersea and I have returned to my job after adoption leave. On November 21 2011 Ekaterina and I made our way to the family division of the High Court. The hearing took just five minutes and we celebrated with a rocky road cake at Starbucks. Katyas adoption has been made legal in the UK. In one sense,that marked the end of the process. Nursery rhymes echo in my ear at night,not Peggy Lee. But in another it marked the beginning. I send regular reports of Katya’s progress,with photos,back to the Russian court. Wandsworth continues to monitor us. And then there is Katty,a happy,wilful two-and-a-half-year-old who already asks,with a good south London accent,Why?
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