Amma’s ex-aide alleges sexual abuse at ashram

Ashram says allegations in Gail Tredwell’s Holy Hell baseless.

Written by Shaju Philip | Thiruvananthapuram | Published: February 20, 2014 12:50 am

A former close aide of spiritual leader Mata Amritanandamayi has come out with a book which narrates tales of alleged sexual exploitation and abuse in the ashram.

In the recently published Holy Hell, A Memoir of Faith, Devotion and Pure Madness, Gail Tredwell alias Gayatri describes how she was sexually abused at the ashram, where, according to her, senior inmates had physical relations.

Ashram representative Sudeep Kumar confirmed that Gayatri had been with Amritanandamayi for two decades before quitting the ashram in 1999. However, Kumar said the contents of her book were absolutely baseless. “The allegations were surprising and defy common logic,’’ he said.

Tredwell, an Australian national, joined as a personal attendant to “the hugging saint’’ in 1978 at the age of 19, and witnessed how the young woman from a fishing village in Kerala grew into a towering spiritual leader, with followers across the world, and whose trusts now run a network of institutions in health and education sectors.
Tredwell said she wanted to know God and by working as Amma’s personal attendant, she thought she could achieve that goal. During her early days at the ashram, Tredwell said she was blessed with unforgettable spiritual experiences.

She alleged that in order to keep up her facade of innocence and purity, Amritanandamayi had a small team of trusted individuals doing her dirty work, and she (Tredwell) was one of them. “I was indeed uniquely privileged to witness Amma’s human side and her array of emotions — pretty standard ones, most of them, for non-gurus — that were highly contradictory to what she taught and displayed in public,’’ she wrote.

Tredwell alleged that one of the ashram colleagues had sexually exploited her and such repeated abuse eroded her faith. Her memoir contains details of alleged promiscuity among ashram members.

She said when a section of dev-otees became vocal about the wealth of Amma’s family, her trusted lieutenant, whom Tredwell describes as Balu, told the devotees that the wealth belonged to her father’s fishing business.
“I cringed when I heard this, for it was a flat-out lie, and even more because I knew people were not that gullible,’’ Tredwell wrote.

Tredwell said said towards the end of 1987, it became almost a daily routine for Amritanandamayi to threaten to throw her out.  “Those who dared to speak out were immediately blacklisted, deemed a traitor, and looked upon as a threat to the preservation of faith among her disciples. This life was more than just grueling,” she wrote.
Ashram spokesman Sudeep Kumar said Tredwell had left the ashram at her own choice. “She never had any such complaints in the initial days after she left the ashram. We had supported her later. Everyone knows Amma’s life is open and transparent,’’ Kumar said.

Kumar, however, said they did not plan any legal action against Gail Tredwell at this stage.

While reports on the book, available on, went viral on social media, CPI(M) Rajya Sabha member and party daily Deshabhimani’s  resident editor (Kochi) P Rajiv criticised mainstream media’s reluctance to report on the issue. “The media should know that gone are the days when people would be kept in the dark since you (media) hide the truth,’’ he posted on Facebook.

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    Sharath Chandra
    Mar 2, 2016 at 12:49 pm
    Lord Shiva Pushed me onto Amma ! He came in a Form and Told me to Get to Amma at Every cost in the Most Personal Way and Seek her Grace Inspite of Telling him that I already have a Guru ! He told me , That is Different ! She is the Shakti, The Incarnation ! Amma Held My Hands and I Held Amma's Feet ! Amma Put Flowers on My Head ! I Guess by Now You Must have Understood what has Happened ! That was Amma's Divine Grace ! She is the Mahishasura Mardhini , Ramya Tapaswini , Ayagiri Nandini and the Infinite Forms of the Goddess Shakti Herself ! Those were the Old Days of he Devi Bhava Darshan ! She Made Things Burn Into Ashes ! Just Like Lord Shiva's Third Eye Power ! Amma's Trishulam Power in her Devi Form is Too Powerful ! That Day I had Amma's Darshan for 3-4 Times in a Single Day ! Amma Revealed the Plan ========gt; Her Burning of the Wicked cannot be Tolerated by Any Foreign Nations, Amma is Beyond Everything ! She Reveled and He Revealed the Truth to me ! Amma Revealed : You are My Son, .......... Like , Where Will You Go ? Amma's Revelation as Shakti and Bhagwan Satya Sai Baba Revelation as Shiva Saved My Life ! Being Transported from Amma's Lap to Baba's Lap, My Life was Saved ! Amma Revealed to me : They ( The Rothschild's ) Attempt to Kill You ! She stopped my visit to USA Amma's Shakti Form Made a Mesmerising Power and Saved My Life ! The Rothshilds again attempted a Death Attempt on my life when I riding a 2 wheeler, Amma Again Saved me through the Power of a Few dogs who jumped onto me and saved my life ! It was God's Incarnations as Amma and Baba in Human Form who had to Play the Divine Play to Save My Life ! This Truly Happened post the Rothschild's Killing of Innocent Americans ......... My Life was Saved, Amma Gave Her Darshan ! Bhagwan Sri Sathya Sai Baba was in ICU at that time, I was not allowed to see him physically ! Yet, They as Divine Parents have Done their Part Making Even Killer Dirty Western Nations and their Actions Useless Before Divine Power ! Wow, That is the Power of Amma ! She is the Divine Goddess Mother ! She is the Adiparashakti ! Indians Will Not Respect Money Sponsored Rothschilds False News , For Amma is True ! Amma Amma Kali, Akhilandeshwari Devi, Adiparashakti , Thank You for Your Heart Love Amma !
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      Raju Chacko
      Mar 9, 2014 at 11:23 am
      Rich and Powerful can make old into New Heaven.About the final separation and Universal Judgement is described in Matthew Chapter 25 verse 41 it says God is Coming a second time to depart His Left hand side'rs into the everlasting fire prepared for the devil and his angels.Several countries in this world who practiced wickedness and partiality faced this fire became cursed,for not having helped the poor and needy in their distress.Now it appears India is going to face this fire for which the US will give $28 Crores to stan next year to make such fire.( M.Manorama/dt/ 9.3.2014)If US had given such an amount to the needy people of the world Christ would have called USA a blessed Country.Eventhough I and my wife served a US backed Global religion for the last 27 years, we became homeless and landless.We are now Living in the State of Kerala Porly known as "God's Own Country". The Whites want to make it a .Not ordinary , a Holy .They destro all the blacks from the face of the earth.They are not sincerely uplifting the poor and needy in our country.Their aim is to possess the Land. After possessing Lands they spend lots of money to construct infra structure buildings there as part of their Global exploitation..With the help of Price hike, sponsored corruption and meager ries, they made our life like a .
      1. F
        Nov 16, 2014 at 6:50 pm
        The most amazing thing about this article is that no one has commented on it. Why the silence?