After giving Bollywood some critically acclaimed films like Gangs of Wasseypur, Lunchbox, Manjhi, Black Friday and Badlapur among others, Nawazuddin Siddiqui got his name associated with one of the biggest controversies of Bollywood after his memoir An Ordinary Life released this October.
The memoir, which narrates the story of Nawazuddin’s struggle, hope, relentless persistence, the desire to dream and last but not the least, his affairs, made headlines for all the wrong reasons. The controversies reached a boiling point and the Bajrangi Bhaijaan actor had to withdraw the memoir from the stands within a week of its release. While withdrawing the book, Siddiqui said, “I am apologising to everyone who’s [sic] sentiments are hurt because of the chaos around my memoir, “An Ordinary Life”. I hereby regret and decide to withdraw my book.”
But what was that which made the actor take the decision? It was the revelations about his affairs with Niharika Singh, Sunita Rajwar and other intimate details of his personal life that landed him in trouble.
Here is all that he mentioned in his memoir, An Ordinary Life
1. Nawazuddin Siddiqui on his first girlfriend Sunita Rajwar
I was performing in a play in Mumbai which was when I finally had my first romantic relationship. Sunita had fallen madly in love with me. Every day, she would come over, hang out at my house in Mira Road and scrawl our names in tiny font all over the wall… You remember those old-fashioned hearts with the names of lovers in it, sometimes with an arrow across it, sometimes without? Her doodles (on his wall) were something like that. Then she went off on a holiday to her hometown in the hills to see her folks. When she returned, Sunita would not take any of my calls. And when she did, at last, I was flabbergasted. After such a deep, passionate love, she simply said, ‘Nawaz, you focus on your career. And I will focus on my career.’ She cut off all contact after that and I plunged into another deep, deep depression. I took a bucket of fresh white paint and began to replace her artwork on my walls with the blank canvas that they were before.”
What happened after the breakup
“Soon after her call, one day I was at the station and stood there staring at the tracks. A train was coming, screaming its arrival with a lusty horn. It would be simple and instant. Should I jump on to the tracks and end it all? End this struggle, end this life? I had nothing. No love, no work, no money. But some being woke up in me and gave me a metaphorical slap. ‘You know this is not your department,’ the voice in my head said. ‘Then why? Why did you go that way? Why!’ it screamed at me. I decided that I would never again be emotional in any relationship.”
But to all this, Sunita has a different story to tell.
In a long Facebook post which started with, “‘An Ordinary Life’ Of ‘Extraordinary Lies’ The real truth behind why I left Nawaz?”, Sunita slammed the actor and said that it is true that they didn’t have any kind of relation in NSD but to say that they never met there is a little odd. Revealing the true reason for their breakup, Sunita said that she was actually disgusted by Nawaz because she had found out that Nawaz had been revealing intimate details of their affair with some mutual friends while making fun of it.
2. Nawazuddin Siddiqui on one-night stand with a waitress in New York
“Those years between 2006 and 2010 were pretty incredible too. The industry had begun to notice me… Strangely, the West was kinder to me first, both in terms of love and work… I was at a cafe once with my friend in New York City’s Soho area. The stunning waitress kept staring at me… ‘You? You are an actor?’ she asked a rhetorical question. ‘Yes!’ I replied. ‘Which film of mine did you see? Gangs of Wasseypur?’ She squinted, trying to remember, ‘No, no,’ she said. ‘Another film!’ After a few moments, she responded: ‘Lunchbox!’ We got talking and let’s just say what happens in New York stays in New York…”
3. Nawazuddin Siddiqui on his relationship with Suzzane, a girl from New York
“Suzanne: a lovely, dear Jewish girl from New Jersey, who lived in New York City. We met there and hit it off. She came to Mumbai and began to live with me… Every few months, she kept extending her visa… The shooting of Miss Lovely commenced. Suzanne used to accompany me there. Then came the day when her visa expired and she needed to return to New York to sort it out. She was gone for many months.”
4. Nawazuddin Siddiqui on his relationship with Niharika Singh
“For the very first time I went to Niharika’s house… When she opened the door, revealing a glimpse of the house, I was speechless with amazement. A hundred, or so it seemed, little candles flickered beautifully. She wore soft faux fur, looking devastatingly gorgeous, her beauty illuminated even more in the candlelight. And I, being the lusty village bumpkin that I am, scooped her up in my arms and headed straight for the bedroom. We made passionate love. And just like that, out of the blue, I began a relationship with Niharika Singh, a relationship which I did not know then would last for almost one and a half years.”
When things started to fall out between Nawazuddin Siddiqui and Niharika Singh
Meantime, emails from Suzanne started coming. ‘Why are you not mailing me, Nawaz? What’s wrong?’ I did not respond… I trusted my silence would convey what needed to be conveyed. When I was checking my inbox one day, Niharika happened to see one of her emails. ‘Who is this?’ she inquired. ‘You know very well who it is,’ I said. ‘It’s Suzanne.’ ‘Wo-ow! It’s still going on between you two! Amazing!’ Niharika thundered in anger. ‘It is wrong. I hope you know that…”
“From that day, Niharika began to send emails to Suzanne from my email address. She would type, ‘I cannot continue with you …’ and sign off as me. Imagine the shock for Suzanne. She would send heartbreaking replies… After a few of these email exchanges, Suzanne figured that this was not my voice at all. ‘Who is this writing, Nawaz? I know this is not you… Who is she? Who is this b***h?’ ‘B***h!’ That word infuriated Niharika so much that she made me end all correspondence with Suzanne forever… I was very sad. Then I thought, so be it, it’s all right, I am with Niharika. My melancholy evaporated quickly.
“Niharika was an intelligent girl. Being an actor herself meant that she knew and understood my struggle for work… She would call me in frequent spurts throughout the day demanding to know of my whereabouts… [Then] The regularity of the questions felt like being nagged non-stop… There was another piece to this puzzle. Like all girls, Niharika obviously expected some of the sweet conversations that lovers have, to take place between us. But I was quite a selfish b*****d. I had a plain aim: go to her house, make out and leave. I could not talk lovey-dovey too much.
When Nawazuddin and Niharika finally ended their relationship
“It finally struck her (Niharika) that I was a rascal who cared only for himself. (Actually, all the girls I have ever been with have had this same complaint about me. I would only come to them for my own needs. Otherwise, I might not even take their calls.) When I went to her place next, she was wearing a silk robe. I ran my hand over its coolness around her waist, grabbing her but she pushed me away. ‘No, Nawaz!’ she said. ‘I won’t meet you again. This is enough.’ I pleaded I cried, I apologized. But she remained adamant. She had had enough. So that was that we broke up cutting off all contact.”
Niharika’s version of the story:
Niharika told indianexpress.com, “Nawaz and I had a brief relationship in 2009 during the making of ‘Miss Lovely’ that lasted less than a few months. So today when he paints me as a woman in fur enticing him into her bedroom with candles, or desperately calling him and mailing other women on his behalf, I can only laugh. He obviously wants to sell his book and it would appear that he is willing to exploit and disrespect a woman just to do so. He has chosen to fabricate stories and manipulate a fleeting relationship. None of what he has written has been to my knowledge, let alone my consent. It is this very aspect of Nawaz that caused me to end my relationship with him in the first place. I have always maintained that he’s a brilliant actor. However, I had hoped these acting skills would have remain confined only to the screen. Still, I wish him well.”